Posted by LittleGirlLost on November 22, 2005, at 21:39:44
In reply to Re: I don't want to feel this way... » LittleGirlLost, posted by daisym on November 22, 2005, at 19:34:05
> (((LGL))) I can't begin to tell you how many times Fallsfall had to tell me I was worth caring about before I believed it. So I'll tell you -- You are worth caring about. I'm sure your therapist does. And so do I. Don't torture yourself. Call her.
(((Daisy))) This comment finally brought forth a few of the tears I've been fighting for the past few days; thank you for this.
You're probably right about the writing and reading it myself, but I don't like reading out loud... or even talking for that long without being interrupted. I feel so unworthy of any attention and when speaking, try to get my point across as quickly as possible so that I don't have to keep talking. I also worry that if I were to read it, knowing me, I would probably edit as I read. But you are right though and I understand how helpful it has been for you. And it's not that I want to bring it up at the end, but it always seems like I am walking in there every week with some pressing issue. Sometimes it just feels like doing damage control week to week and there isn't really any time to get to the older and deeper issues. So of course I worry that I am doing it wrong... Which led to my current thoughts of 'is it worth it'.
As far as the holiday screwing me out of my appt, maybe I am wrong for expecting her to fit me in. Truthfully though, I wouldn't have ever expected it if she hadn't always done it before. Sure I might wish I could have said something, but I'm sure this happens to others, so maybe I shouldn't get any special treatment. I should just see it as bad luck. But it did hurt me because she's always done it, plus, don't I have any ranking? I mean, what if she fit in a newer person?! <gasp!>
lgl
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