Posted by LittleGirlLost on November 22, 2005, at 21:15:57
In reply to Re: I don't want to feel this way... » LittleGirlLost, posted by muffled on November 22, 2005, at 15:42:26
Hehee Muffled, no you didn't piss me off at all. :) In fact I agreed with so much of what you said. Yes it does feel like I am going in circles and I thank you for pointing that out.
What really stuck out for me was this:
> ****I dunno, not calling your T may have been your silent cry for help. But just like here on babble, unless you speak up, people aren't gonna hear you.
That is exactly what it was. I usually call her without fail every week. There was one week where I was feeling so bad that I actually couldn't call, but wished with all my might that she would sense it and call me. I have told her this too; that if I don't call, it's actually not a good sign and doesn't mean I am doing well and don't need to call, it usually means just the opposite. I think in a way that I was doing the same thing now, and I feel stupid and unrealistic to even expect her to just know this.
> ****Guess you goto decide how happy you are with your life and whether you REALLY want to change things. If you don't, then not much point in going to T. is there?
I get what you're saying. To answer you honestly, at this point (and who knows, it could change tomorrow) no, I am not happy with my life and do want to change things, but right now I just feel so worthless. Hopeless also, but moreso worthless; maybe this is all I deserve. So then no, there isn't any point to going.
Well anyway, I did take your advice and called her tonight. I'll try to post an update in a little bit. (I'm glad I listened to you. :) )
lgl
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