Posted by Karen_kay on January 9, 2004, at 20:10:03
In reply to Re: To the Dreamweaver » Karen_kay, posted by DaisyM on January 9, 2004, at 19:03:10
I think I'm getting accustomed to this whole dream thing. I used to be good at figuring out dreams, or so I thought. Now look at me. I've been reading a lot and I know that I'm really just afraid to tell him that I need him. I'm afraid to tell myself at this point. I know that I don't need him to get through the day or anything like that but I'm just been so used to ONLY being able to depend on myself at this point and I know that now I really need his guidance to help me figure things out.
And the whole projection thing, I've mentioned it several times. During sessions Ill say, "You seem hostile today," and he'll just sit there for a second and let me think about it and I'll say, "Ok, I know I'm just projecting my feelings onto you."
But, I don't realize that I've been doing it to this extent. That me seeing him as unsupportive is really just because of the fact that I'm unemotional during the session. I want to being emotions into the session, I really do.
It was sweet. On the phone he mentioned he was frustrated and that his day would be better if he had a client like me today :) See, he is a really good therapist. He knows when to say the right things. And how to make everything better. I'm not as anxious today, especially since I talked to him and KNOW that he is ok. And I don't feel that "fear" like I did yesterday, which is good. Maybe it's because I did talk to him today and he made me feel better, put my mind at ease???
I know that I need to think about the dream about my father and forgiving him, but don't I first need to "feel" something about what happened before I can actually forgive him? I think maybe that is what that dream is telling me as well. That it is time for me to start feeling something. Anger, rage, frustration, hurt ANYTHING...It's time to stop denying and start healing! I'm on my way babe!Feeling good and ready to move on,
Karen(Ah, the power of dreams, baby!)
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