Posted by alexandra_k on September 27, 2014, at 18:32:40
In reply to Re: tick tock, posted by alexandra_k on September 27, 2014, at 18:22:05
it is because i don't have a herd. and that is what high school is all about... having a herd. so that bitch girls are less likely to target you.
i tend to get targeted because i appear to be likeable enough / strong etc but i don't have a group. i intentionally... well i prefer to sit by myself etc because of the whole sound wave thing (amongst other reasons). i mean... we have evolved beyond the whole huddling in groups around the fire thing, yeah? sometimes development tracks evo history, i guess. 18 is (in a lot of instances)... not quite there yet.
cbt: catastrophizing.
it might well not be that bad. but i am... preparing for the worst case. because it could happen.
i am thinking about how hard to push the separate room thing for next year. or a tutor person to help me (so that i don't need to fight for attention of demonstrators / so i won't be targeted). as prevention... just for the first semester...
i am starting to think it might be wisest to push for that.
because...
how f*ck*ng angry am i going to be if some 18 year old bitch girl who isn't even interested in learning decides to stabotage labs for me - because she thinks it will gain her kudos (or at least a little fear) from other people...
pretty f*ck*ng angry indeed.
the issue is mainly that i really am that fragile when it comes to chemistry lab in particular. because of the goggles... i think i'm used to the lab coats now after biology... depending on the demonstrator, too... get one who has that whole tech mentality of laughing at our doing things wrong even though he hasn't told us how we are supposed to do them right...
on the one hand... seems like i'm too fragile really... far too fragile to even be doing this. on the other hand... the things that are making me fragile will significantly drop off over the years. bitch girls are most problematic in the first semester next year (and possibly obgyn later - but at least then they will be a little bit older than 18... chattering in lectures which makes it hard for me to focus... won't be a problem from 2nd year med on... most things... won't be a problem from 2nd year med on... because they will cull out the people who aren't focused on their study. and because everyone will relax a lot after having gained a place... what makes people mostly obnoxious early on is that fear that one has to stay with the crabs and bitch girls... forever...
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