Posted by alexandra_k on September 16, 2014, at 22:02:18
In reply to Re: break, posted by alexandra_k on September 8, 2014, at 3:29:26
in my classes. but... oddly enough... doing alright otherwise.
fairly stressed... but that is the time of year. and there are various things i can do to free up extra hours.
i did learn a lot of biology over the break (after the test). and i have the textbook now...
and i do feel vaguely reassured about physics... that we do indeed get marks for concepts and for setting out strategies even if i do persistently f*ck up my calculations. it is motivating me, anyway. i think the thing to do is to print out the powerpoints and work back through the recordings... can pause things... work through the problems. and listening to the recordings is kind of entertaining, actually. enjoyable in a way that sitting down with a calculator and being faced with problems... isn't. because i really have no confidence / faith in what i'm doing at all. i have... never felt so stupid as when it comes to physics. well... math. i guess they are the same really. kinda sorta semi...
i suppose... it is a bit of a miracle really if i can come out of a university course in physics with a passing grade a bit below the average grade for the course... given that i've never done high school maths... i should probably think of it more like that...
anyway... i can work harder. and i can work smarter. and... i have been working a bit... so... respect, i guess. i will have to work harder. and of course... they probably marked us pretty hard for that in order to extract better work out of us for our exams. that's what i would do if i were them, anyway. biology people didn't tell us the class average...
anyway... off to print off some physics...
i think... i think the thing is that i thought they would be... dissapointed in me... upset... scathing... something... something like that... for me doing not so well. or perhaps gloating and pleased. something like that. but... they don't seem to be. i guess it is one of those things... persistence... a bit like the gym... not much kudos goes to the person who just rocks up and can do things... more to the person who demonstrably persists through hard times... anyway... people seem... kinder. somehow. or maybe... it is me. humbled. whatever. life is good... and there is more to life (more to academic life even) than grades. huh. who woulda thunk?
that being said... must... do... better. but also... will do better when i care more about what i'm learning about. the lecturers are interesting and they really do do what they can to convey that... but i'm just not particularly interested in other critters or evolution more generally or history of society / law or musical instruments... aspects are interesting and relevant... and important... and of course i really am a firm believer in the intrinsic value of knowledge etc etc... but... i don't know... perhaps i'm starting to grow up? maybe that is it... anyway... off to print off some physics...
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