Posted by holymama on October 14, 2005, at 19:07:59
In reply to Please help me see a future, posted by Deneb on October 14, 2005, at 18:45:17
Sweetie,
Go to a hospital. You need to get some help and get back on your feet.
I'll tell you something. You remind me of myself early in my twenties. This is when I didn't understand myself yet and my incomprehensible tortured mind. As I've gotten older I have come to understand myself better and get control of my mind -- WITH the help of medication and therapy. Lots of both. But it took me a few years to figure this stuff out.You are just at the beginning of this journey. There is a risk of suicide with your disorder and you need to get help SO THAT YOU CAN SURVIVE LONG ENOUGH TO BE ABLE TO HELP YOURSELF.
If you are smart, you will start getting help when or before you need it. Only over time will you learn how to manage this yourself. You WILL learn, but now is the time to get help from others so they can teach you how to do it. THIS WILL GET EASIER. I PROMISE.
I think you've said you've been in a hospital before -- (or did I make that up???) From my experience, a 'private' hospital was a far better experience than a plain old ER public hospital. (I'm sure people have had different experiences). Can you call your insurance and find out what hospitals they will cover for inpatient psychiatric hospitalizations?
I hate the idea that I'm pushing a hospital stay on you, but I think you need more help than you are getting.
take care of your precious self.
~Autumn~
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