Posted by Tamar on October 14, 2005, at 13:42:30
In reply to Re: suicide is something most of us fight off**TRIGGER » holymama, posted by Deneb on October 14, 2005, at 13:03:10
Hi Deneb,
I can see why you want to understand what might be triggering. And that sometimes it’s hard to know how people might respond to what you say.
Here’s what I think: I’ve read a lot of posts here in which people have said they feel suicidal. And in most cases people post (a) the reasons they feel suicidal and (b) that they don’t want to feel suicidal.
You said:
"Maybe I just don't know how to express my suffering."
It does seem to me that you don’t often say *why* you are thinking about death. And you also don’t often say that you don’t want to feel suicidal. So I think it could be hard for people to understand the depths of your suffering. Without additional information (like what has prompted your suicidal feelings) perhaps people could interpret your posts as taking suicide lightly.Maybe some people could think you don’t take suicide seriously. If they thought you were being serious they could perhaps feel compassion for you despite the personal pain the subject triggers for them. But maybe it’s harder for people for feel compassion if they don’t understand your suicidal feelings.
I happen to believe that you do take suicide seriously. And I suspect that you don’t always know why you feel suicidal. I suspect that sometimes you just feel you want to die without having any particular reason. Of course, I could be wrong… I don’t want to jump to conclusions or tell you how you feel or anything like that. Please feel free to correct me if I’ve misunderstood you.
I think it’s important for you to be able to talk about your suicidal feelings here. There are people here who seem to understand and who want to help as much as they can. There might always be some people (here and in real life) who don’t understand, perhaps because their own pain gets in the way of the possibility of feeling compassion for you. If there are any people in that situation I guess the best thing we can do is to feel compassion for them...
But I think the way you’re talking about it now is different from when you first came to Babble and I think you’ve shown that you do care how other people feel about your posts. That’s surely a good thing.
Tamar
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