Posted by johnnyj on July 18, 2006, at 10:45:26
In reply to Re: Not good. » johnnyj, posted by jules354 on July 18, 2006, at 10:02:52
I saw her last monday and that was the 5th day of feeling good. I thought I had turned a corner because it was the best, and longest period since quitting. Then I had a bad night followed by two pretty good nights, another bad, then two good. The last two were horrible though. I am so fatigued it hurts to move. Stomach tension is bad and appetite is off. I am hungry but eating is hard. I have no idea what is going on. It doesn't feel like what I have experienced before so I am so confused. I don't see how I can be so up and down.
I sometimes feel very bad after eating. Just get really down and then I start to feel better some later. Sweating at night is bad. I feel cold so pull up the sheet only to start to sweat 5 minutes later. I just toss and turn with this frustration I can't control. I just don't understand what is going on?? Is this WD? or just plain old anixety. The funny thing is I don't feel panicky. The lack of sleep is hurting my mood big time. I guess I will be a slave to meds for the rest of my life. It is so sad because I don't like myself on meds. I am nicer to everyone off of them. I guess I just can't handle reality or something. I just want to sleep well and be a good husband to my wife. I do feel bad she has to deal with this and I wouldn't blame her if she left. It is hard not to think that I am headed rock bottom from here. My doc gave me rozerem but I have not taken any. If I can't fall asleep tonight I HAVE to try something. Sweet sleep where have you gone? I am so pissed off with this feeling of frustration I can't control.
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