Posted by TexasChic on April 11, 2006, at 19:58:47
In reply to Re: Re wow what a horrid day, posted by TexasChic on April 9, 2006, at 16:54:00
Today I went to work and it was so weird, I just didn't care about all the crap anymore. I suddenly felt confident and just fine by myself. The two girls just looked pathetic somehow. When I think about how bad I felt, and how I feel now, I just don't know where to give credit for the change. I know I have been daily getting calmer, but its strange. Its like I just... let it go.
I think I may have heard the two girls making plans to go out with people from work without me, and I didn't even care! I was like, I wouldn't want to hang out with them anyway, they would just annoy the hell out of me. Just a week ago the same thing would have made me a basket case! I just hope this feeling is permanent and not a delusion of some kind.
Today and yesterday I've been going to sit in my car for lunch. It felt so good to get away from everyone. Plus the weather is really nice right now, sunny and a light breeze. I'm going to enjoy it while I can because I know it won't last long. Unfortunately we usually only have a few days that are really nice, then it gets too hot to sit outside unless there's a large body of water nearby.
I hope this good feeling lasts. Its not manic or anything, its just not the obsessive paranoid thing anymore. Now I just need to use it to meet new people. Still baby steps I guess.
-T
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