Posted by girlygirl on May 27, 2003, at 8:54:58
In reply to Re: social anxiety/phobia - anyone else?, posted by daizy on May 24, 2003, at 11:39:06
Hi Daizy, just got chance to get back here (don't have internet access at home - in library!). It's basically the same stuff that stops me being able to talk to people. feeling ugly, fat, different, boring etc. When I left uni (first time round) three years ago I didn't say goodbye to a single person, apart from my tutors. I didn't even go to the farewell dinner they held for my year group cos I knew a lot of the people there wouldn't even recognise me.
Then I went to uni again (to do a postgrad) a year later and IT HAPPENED AGAIN. This time I managed to make one friend (big breakthrough) but I ended up running out of the goodbye "do" in tears because I felt so isolated. Pathetic or what? Now I've been in my first proper job for 10 mths and never get invited out for a drink, barely know a single person. and i feel like I've really TRIED! It is all about trusting people, I think, and I just can't do it. i was really badly bullied at school (aged 11 to 15) and I think that's what started it. What about you?
I don't think my boss is very fond of me but yr right, I think I am just being paranoid about him not liking me. I think I make him uncomfortable.
I've had LOADS of counselling (just count up... five or six different ones over the past six years) but never targeted at social anxiety or whatever. and I've tried Prozac, Cipramil (Celexa), Effexor, Dothiepin and Lofepramine. I'm on Lofepramine now with beta blockers. Seems to give me a bit more energy to get out of bed in the morning but that's about it.
My ex-boyfriend (who I'm still mates with), is there for me by phone (he lives in a different town) and I've got a few other friends I can talk to on the phone a bit, but in this town there isn't really anyone.. lucky I found this board! Hope I haven't bored the a**e off you!
GG xx
> Hey! I kinda know how you feel a bit, ive got anxiety aswell. I did the drug thing, and it would have been the perfect cure if it had lasted!! I had to leave Uni cause of constantly being scared to go to lectures and do presentations and stuff, then in the end I just stopped going. I dont know your reason but for me its a lack of confidence and hang ups about my appearance, I just dont think Im good enough!
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> It must be hard going to work when your anxious, well done for staying, it would be all to easy to give up! Does your boss really dislike you, or is that just you being paranoid? I suppose you'll have to do some serious thinking about whether it is the job you want to be doing, if it is, then there are ways around the problem. Have you tried councelling? I know some specialise in confidence building, and things like social anxietys. On the medication side, AD's can be helpful to some people, they havnt been so far for me! Have you seen a doctor about it? Do you have anyone who you can really talk to about it? Its good you found this board, there is a lot of help and support here. Good luck!
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