Posted by Angel Girl on April 16, 2002, at 21:23:47
In reply to Re: Definition of a Friend » Angel Girl, posted by paxvox2000 on April 16, 2002, at 20:24:28
I know I'm not an easy person to be with because of my depression. I don't find it easy to be with myself either. I guess I have sucked the life out of my friends. One by one they are abandoning me. I only have two friends left. I cherish their friendships deeply. My lack of self-esteem wonders when they'll leave me too. The last straw for my other friends was my last suicide attempt about 3 weeks ago. Things drastically changed at that point. All I've ever wanted in life is to feel loved. I don't think I'm ever going to achieve that. But how can I expect anybody else to love me when I don't love myself. I'm soooooo tired of living like this. Life has nothing for me anymore. I'm not sure it ever did. All I ever feel is heartbreak and pain. I have no fight left in me.
Angel Girl
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