Posted by rskontos on March 20, 2008, at 19:16:57
In reply to Re: Left Therapy Sad today..this is hard(trigger?) » rskontos, posted by Dinah on March 20, 2008, at 18:28:19
Thanks Dinah, it helps knowing people caring even if they can't relate. Hel* I have a hard time relating to and it is happening to me. When I tell Dr. S it sounds weird to me, so that is why it is hard to tell even him and he understands it better than most as it is a speciality of his.
Yeah the calm face. Do you sometimes want to revolt from it all. The calm outside yet no calm inside. I do, I feel like screaming so everyone will know how I feel inside, yet that would just get stares not really empathy. So the resent lives on..
It is just today, I did not have time to gather myself up before time. And to tell you the truth probably even an hour or more would not have been enough time. It took me about 3 hours and an xanax to calm down. So that isn't his fault it is a fault of my brain....
Sometimes being in his office helps but sometimes like today not so much.
Thanks though again, for the post like I said, just talking it out to someone who wants to listen helps a great deal. I understand the weirdness of it all. that is why I often don't speak up about it. But lately it is all too much....
rsk
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