Posted by rskontos on March 20, 2008, at 18:48:54
In reply to Re: Left Therapy Sad today..this is hard(trigger?), posted by muffled on March 20, 2008, at 14:54:31
Yeah Muffled I told him that maybe I am an alter not real. Heck I am not sure there is a real me and so there is no way to blend us to anything is there. I was talking to my son and H and suddenly came back mid sentence and they did not notice. I stumbled becaused I realized I had been gone and someone body else was talking not me. Who I have no clue. But you'd think people living with me this long would notice. But no, they did not. And as I tried to describe it Dr S he got it. He says people you live with just don't always look so closely at everything. I told him it is so different from say fainting when the world comes back in parts. This is like one minute I am here and the next gone and poof I am back. And I feel the same only weird because I know I have been out of my brain, gone. GOne where who the hel* knows. And someone else is out and about. But this time I was actually mid-sentence. I told him I was feeling less connected to the world and he asked if that felt bad. And said well I guess not anymore since I have now been this way for 49 years but in the last few weeks I had felt more solid and grounded but the rug felt yanked away.
No you are right it ain't easy. I believe due to the fact I dread going to sleep that the flashbacks will intensify now and that I will get the meaning of my nightmares soon. And these men in my flashbacks I will know soon what they are doing:( Although one can guess. But knowing is finally putting it behind you I hope. At least I hope.
I will try to take care you too muffled
thanks for answering
as I told Dr S talking to everyone helps but those that go through this is most helpful at times.rsk
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