Posted by Racer on November 30, 2005, at 14:00:20
In reply to I can't seem to do anything, posted by Racer on November 28, 2005, at 23:24:06
Thanks for the support, everyone. My dietician and I talked about this yesterday -- since I had been trying to get productive again the only way I knew how: no eating. She said that, even though my weight is within a healthy range now, this is probably still the refeeding syndrome. Since I've gone back and forth between restricting and eating, but not eating normal amounts on a normal schedule, my body is still not adjusted to non-starvation. Once it does adjust, she thinks I'll have energy again.
What really sucks about this, besides the fact that I can beat myself up with the best of them, and that it's all been going on so long, and all that -- what really sucks is that I don't "look" anorexic, so everyone seems to assume I'm doing fine, and that not getting anything done is because I'm lazy, self-indulgent, undisciplined, etc. All the things that, in the world view I've inherited from my family, are synonyms for "FAT."
At any rate, I'm supposed to work on a few things -- not beating myself up, making deals with myself to get something done each day, etc. Maybe it'll help.
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