Posted by muffled on November 28, 2005, at 23:48:12
In reply to I can't seem to do anything, posted by Racer on November 28, 2005, at 23:24:06
> I'm caught in a vicious circle, where I can't seem to get anything done, and I "know" that if I did things I'd feel better. Instead, I get nothing done and then hate that I didn't. (Nearly wrote that I hated myself -- maybe I do, but I know it's not healthy to say it. Maybe if I don't say it, I will learn not to feel it?)
***That'd be cool. Lemme know if it works.
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> Which comes first, the depression, or the inability to get anything done? What can I do, since I can't seem to do anything else? All I want to do is climb under the covers, pull them over my head, and nap. Or, right now, cry?***Depression majorly sucks
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> (Keep in mind, fertility drugs -- they're part of teh emotional roller coaster.)***whoa fert. drugs, heard they can be pretty wicked, least its temporary. Doesn't help much now tho does it?
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> Anyway, I don't know if I need advice or comfort. Maybe mostly comfort -- as usual, whenever I think about how I "should" deal with this, I end up beating myself up even more: "For cryin' out loud -- you know that you'd feel better if you got your fat lazy @$$ off that chair and cleaned the bathroom/kitchen/went to the store/gym/whatever, and you still don't do it. No wonder you feel so miserable -- and you have no one but yourself to blame." You know the routine, right? I don't know which is worse -- the situation itself, or the self-recriminations.***Both, whole thing freaking sucks. But its curable. Its not forever. You not gonna die. Just feel like freaking sh*t awhile. The dirt and crud will wait for you. Leastaways mine does. My dirt and crud BREEDS when I leave it. Damn dirt and crud anyways. Sh*t.
I got a mouth like a freaking sewer this eve.>
> Ugh.***Seen your posts off and on Racer. Really hope things pick up a bit for you soon.
So I send you some comfort. From one who knows. IT F*CKING SUCKS. Give youself a break, g'head and crawl under the sheets for a coupla hours and tell the world to go to hell cuz you got some misery to attend to.
Seriously,
Please take care.
Not easy, but not forever.
Muffled.
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