Posted by cricket2 on July 4, 2005, at 18:54:51
In reply to Disconnected with T, posted by rockymtnhi on July 4, 2005, at 12:32:06
How long have you been in therapy with him?
I know that when I started therapy for the first six months (the honeymoon I guess they call it) I felt connected and understood. I didn't share anything all that deep and didn't really trust him all that much. But I liked him and liked listening to him and for me that was a major breakthrough.
Then slowly I started feeling less and less comfortable. I got quieter and quieter in therapy. The connection felt less and less. I felt a little voice in my head saying to him "come closer." But it felt like we just didn't click as you said and I began to dread therapy more and more. Actually I still do dread it but that's another story :)
But during all this time (and this was years - I'm not sure how I stuck it out - well actually I didn't always stick it out, I quit, I didn't show up for sessions sometimes) something was happening inside me. Maybe it was a connection, a real connection that grew (not an oh I like you because you're smart and seem to like me fake connection) and I almost had to become mute in therapy for that to happen.
Perhaps this is not at all what is happening with you and your therapist but I wanted to share just in case you might recognize something.
The one thing that helped both of us during that mute, unconnected phase was my dreams. Even though I felt dread at the prospect of seeing him (and I'm sure he must have felt the same sometimes) my dreams showed something else.
So have you had any dreams about your therapist lately? Anything you can bring to him to help you both figure out what is going on?
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