Posted by Elle2021 on January 9, 2004, at 14:15:44
In reply to Girl, you have to start getting some sleep! » Elle2021, posted by Karen_kay on January 8, 2004, at 12:27:41
AHHHHHHHHHH!!! I had an awesome post for you and then I forgot to put my name in at the top and it made me have to hit the browsers back button and the post was gone!!!! Argh.
Well I will do my best to rewrite it.
Okay, I am in the midst of a manic episode. I feel wonderful, like I could run a marathon! It's great when depression lifts for a while.
I didn't mean to imply that your hair was ratty, silly girl. It's just that the only people I know who don't have to brush their hair are my friends who are black, and they have weaves, so I just assumed you did. Sorry! I hope I didn't hurt your feelings or offend you, that is never my intention!
The reason I am afraid to talk to my pdoc is because I am afraid he will judge me or something. I have some real problems with intimacy. For instance I could never talk to any of my boyfriends about me or my feelings. I could sit and listen to them talk about their feelings for hours, but the second they asked me to share...I was outta there. Thats another thing, my pdoc is always asking me why I don't have a boyfriend. Well, that is the reason. Plus I have TONS of pet peeves; little things upset me. If you have any advice on how I can open with my doctor, I would love and appreciate it. Oh yeah, and, I think I am going to be able to make it to my pdoc app. I'm excited cause I have some questions for him. First of all, I want to know what he thinks is wrong with me and I want to see my file. I'm really curious about what he thinks about me.
>*I haven't ever threatened to commit suicide because my boyfriend says he's going to leave me or anything like that. I have actually attempted suicide 2 times.
I haven't ever tried to commit suicide, but I have suicidal ideation. I think about it, but I would never be able to go through with it. One time I had this really whacked out dream. I was wearing this long black coat and I was walking through the snow and pretty soon I just collapsed into the snow because I had taken too many pills. My pdoc thought it was because I was thinking too much about suicide, but the real reason is because I am so paranoid about taking the exact amount of correct medication. By the way, I am super happy that you found a med that makes you feel better!!
>This statement I just made. Like, "I'll show him" Is that me being spiteful Karen or is it BPD?)Well, I think since it was a defense mechanism, it was probably the bpd. You didn't want him to know it hurt your feelings.
I have an idea for Shorty. What you need to do is call her doctor and tell him you are worried about her co-dependecy problem. Have him address it in group (indirectly of course). BUT, tell him NOT to tell her that you called him and suggested it, that would probably make her really mad.
Well, I look forward to hearing from you again really soon!
Elle
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