Posted by Jerrympls on June 2, 2002, at 1:25:27
In reply to Re: All I want is to enjoy listening to music again..., posted by omega man on June 1, 2002, at 23:37:57
Thank you all for the suggestions and your stories....However, I've tried everything and it's impossible to predict if and when the feeling will come back.
Let me clarify, in my original post I meant to convey that various AD meds were unsuccessful at helping restore my joy for music. I did not mean I had tried illegal narcotics, etc.
My main love is film music - John Williams is my hero. I have over 650 CD's staring at me right now...and they're dusty...99% of them having not been touched in years.
I do remember that when i started Luvox when it first came out that some of my love for music came back for a while. I also rememeber when I had my wisdom teeth out and was on a steady diet of Vicodin that music felt so wonderful -every note....*sigh*....Also, Ritalin opened the sensory gates and while I listened to music for a brief moment I could feel it alive again...briefly...
I think there's something wrong with my rewward system. But, how can one fix that? everything that can be done is being done to help me - I think. How do you tell your doc to help you to feel music and joy again?
I've tried switching genres, styles, artists, nothing. Bored. Plain. Grey. Line.
Here, try this: If anyone has this recording - Listen to Pines of Rome (movement IV: Pini della Via Appia) by Ottorino Respighi. It's an orgasmic ending - if not THE MOST orgasmic endings in romantic symphonic literature. So, play it as loud as you can a couple times through - it starts very soft and ends very loud.
Now, if your loudest volume level is 20, turn it down to 7 and face your speakers away from you and throw towels around your speakers to muffle the sound....
That's the closest I can get to try to describe what I hear and feel.
Plus, maybe some of you will like this piece...it can be very inspirational.
Thanks everyone....
Jerry
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