Posted by Jerrympls on May 31, 2002, at 0:05:08
...and have yet to find a pill or device to bring that joy back. I've tried on my own only to be dissappointed by failure...I wish to feel the warmth of a major chord played by the lower strings.....or the excitement of a symphonic flurish and crescendo and accelerando to the end! But nothing...I feel nothing...It's like drinking air and not even being thristy. It almost annoys me. How come I can't listen to a piece of music I used to love so much and tell myself to enjoy it--and remind myself how much I loved it? No beauty do I hear...no warmth do I feel....no chills of excitement.....no joy.......
no music in my heart.
Depression is a cruel, cruel, cruel beast. I wouldn't wish it on anyone......ever.
poster:Jerrympls
thread:108122
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