Posted by baseball55 on March 27, 2014, at 19:54:58
In reply to Re: Alcohol » Partlycloudy, posted by Partlycloudy on March 27, 2014, at 19:20:36
I know the feeling completely. I have to remind myself, when I feel bad, that alcohol ultimately makes me feel worse. After that nice mellow feeling wears off - the hangover, the feeling poisoned, the screwed up sleep. But I relapse on and off. Chasing that nice mellow feeling, then ruining it by drinking too much.
> Withdrawal is a bitch. I hadn't slipped for very long, but escalated rapidly.
> Now I'm at the "Oh, yeah, THIS part," blech part. Headaches that aren't hangovers but your brain simply hurting. I drink a lot of clear decaf tea, water. Serious sugar cravings, so I am trying to eat fruit. Carbs don't seem to be an issue yet.
> And I sleep. Weird dreams, perpetually tired. I can see the direct correlation to depression, what a surprise.
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> I hate addiction. I think I would slap anyone who would refer to alcoholism as anything but a disease. How on earth has my liver survived? But it's the brain, the brain that changed and did it for good.
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> I am terribly sorry for acting out here in the depths of my self induced misery, as sincere as it has been. One problem at a time.
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