Posted by alexandra_k on April 28, 2013, at 4:28:09
In reply to Re: PT, posted by alexandra_k on March 27, 2013, at 22:12:38
and...
it's into the pit we go.
it has been a while. not quite the pit. close-ish but not quite the pit not quite yet.
things have been fairly eventful.
we don't have a graduate entry curriculum. and i forgot what first years were like. only that isn't it... first year in philosophy is very different from first year in science. first year in philosophy... we assume that people are literate and capable (even if needing some coaxing sometimes) of reading. of writing. mostly it is about getting them to spend focused time editing. not about basic literacy. mostly people are interested. you don't have to try and relate it to their lives or any sh*t like that. you just teach the stuff and let your enthusiasm shine and hope that people catch some of that...
but here we spend a good week going over the outline. and we get to label parts of the cell in groups. in groups? i can do it by myself in under 2 minutes and you call it a 20 minute group task you have got to be freaking kidding me! it is like i'm back in primary school 'and today let us learn about the letter a'.
i've been writing... working on my thesis. since october last year. been tap tap tapping away. i went to a session on how to use endnote because i have sort of semi taught myself to use LaTeX but my references were a mess and i don't have the ability to use LaTeX for different journals guidelines etc etc so thought I should suck it up and go back to endnote and word and anyway... stuff was said about groups and... i get it. i get it now.
there are my people and my journals and my thesis. and there is a only show stuff published in the last 5 years. and round and round things go and that is how the world goes round. and i'm not sure why this escaped me before. why it escaped me that that is the way things are but now i understand the rules of the game and how the game is supposed to be played and that that is basically the project and that is what hte project is. and i can do that. instead of wandering round and round understanding that people weren't happy with me really and not getting what it was hat i was missing i get it now. i get it. and i can do that. do my best at it. and that is all it is, really. participating in that process. wanting ot participate and participate and it can be quite a nice life.
and i want it thank you very much. only i have trouble working because people won't let me alone. not in the library. not anyplace around campus. i don't get an office. not at home (i'm meant to enteratin them). must... get... funding... to finish. then job. i want it. f*ck helping people. most people would kill me from their stupid. so... much... safer... looking after self. (and there are goo dpeople in the world of course but i'm not seeing many round here where they can't even let something be without stoning different to death).
its not safe round here. too many people who NEED to help/interfere with me... too many of them...
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