Posted by special_k on April 6, 2006, at 10:50:20
In reply to Thank you » special_k, posted by Dinah on April 6, 2006, at 7:49:50
sorry. i just wanted to say... that my needs were disregarded.
and for what?
she saved and saved and saved.
for us to squander now because we have gone to the other extreme... because she was at such an extreme... and just in case you think it is about pressure now (my stepmother 'jokes' about how they are investing in their retirement - like i am going to support them when my father stopped supporting me when i was 7 and then gave me a bit of money - most of it reimbursed to relocate) my mother... went without in order to save... and she gives me money to what? to squander (according to her views of spending / saving) and yeah thats what i do, have done...
and i feel ill.
and i feel like i have let her down.
how many years in my room... how many years being hauled across town... was it worth it?
she sends me a card
'just do your best'
your best is ok.
wtf.
she is sick.
how can i hate her?
goddamn it hurts so much.
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