Posted by JohnDoenut on June 7, 2003, at 0:57:20
In reply to UPDATE (long), posted by mmcasey on June 6, 2003, at 12:17:03
Wow. I can relate to some of that.
I am so glad to read honest (hopefully) outpourings from other human beings.
I (we?) just dont get much of that in real life.
Everyone is living in a shell and putting on
another face. So we come here to be ourselves
in some way.
I feel like I am not me at work, I have to be
someone else and Im really tired of it.
It takes a lot of energy to be an actor all
day long and its draining. I would rather
not be there and do something that is energizing
and not energy sapping.
So who am I? I used to know. I dont know if I
know anymore. I feel like I have lost me.
I see parts of me around the house that
I have not bothered to look at in so long
I forgot it was a part of me, my past, people
and events connected to it and me. And I feel
like where did all that go? What happened to
that? How can I get it back? How can I reconect with me? And in so doing with other people.
Other people are important.
I numb myself with too much tv. TV is an
opiate. It helps put the mind on pause for a bit.
But I still come back to earth.I hope youre doing ok too!
poster:JohnDoenut
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