Posted by mmcasey on June 6, 2003, at 20:37:45
In reply to Re: UPDATE (long) » mmcasey, posted by fallsfall on June 6, 2003, at 19:47:24
> I told my therapist on Tuesday that I was going to go to someone else. She said I could see her until I get a new one - but I miss her already.Okay, I think that I may have read something about why you are switching, but I'm not sure?? Maybe you could enlighten me.
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> Looking for a new therapist is no fun!! I >don't do short therapy, so it is a long term >commitment (my last was 8 1/2 years). And it >seems so important.Yeah... it sucks to find a new therapist. I feel like I am all about long term therapy, but unfortunately my life hasn't allowed for it yet. I have never actually ended therapy because of my own choice - it was always circumstantial either having to do with my own circumstances or my therapist's circumstances or both. I have however seen numerous therapists for amounts of time ranging from about one month up to about 7 months. And I have managed to become extremely attached to 2 of them - my most recent and one from 2 years ago who I saw for 7 months, my entire senior year of college.
> You have a lot of changes going on: new >therapist, no boyfriend, roommates moving out. >That's a lot. Do you have some other friends >who can keep things stable for you? We're >here. So if you are lonely you can post.Yes, there are a lot of changes. My life has been in a state of perpetual change basically since I moved here. There is my family who I talk to, although not so much about my emotions and the extremity of my problems. And there is my best friend who is more or less my savior in many ways. But they aren't here. Plus, they have their own lives to live, and also I get tired of talking to them all the time, especially my parents (no offense to all you parents out there, but this is just how it is for me).
> if I were to kill myself, I'll never get the chance to know if my life can ever be better.
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> This is one of the best reasons I've seen for staying alive.It seems wise, but sometimes it is really hard to hold on to that idea when you feel so incredibly down. I know that it's all part of the cycle though - like, when you are "down" you can't see out of the blackness, etc etc. All this knowledge does not necessarily help though.
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> They call this "Fortune Telling" (it is one of >the Cognitive Distortions). None of this has >happened. You have no reason (that I know of) >to know that this will happen.Yeah, I suppose you are right, but I freak out about it on a daily basis, mainly because getting into school here is the entire focus of my life right now, which probably isn't a good thing. But I can't help it. I am obsessed with it. That, and trying to get control over my depression.
Well, thanks for reading my post.
I'm off to watch Law and Order: SVU, one of the very few (!) shows that I can actually stand these days.
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