Posted by leeran on June 5, 2003, at 2:37:02
In reply to Kara Lynne, posted by Greg A. on June 4, 2003, at 16:26:58
"You are waiting for the relationship to deteriorate to the break-up point?"
Beautifully expressed. Boy, have I been there and done that. Twice (slow learner but did not run with scissors).
I understand what you mean about not wanting to talk to anyone during the depression mode. There are times - when the phone rings - that I am filled with dread. The last thing I want to do is pick it up and deal. With anyone. Bankamerica's marketing department, a client, even my husband - who I love so dearly.
It's so much easier to spend the day drifting from room to room - the dog in my shadow. Her eyes speak volumes yet she honors our silence. Dogs are good for depression. There's something about the repetitive motion of gently kneading a furry ear that's right up there with a Xanax and a Brandy (I've never taken/imbibed in either, or both, but I think I would probably welcome the warm dullness that such a combination might provide with arms wide open).
Small talk is this depressed person's public enemy #1. How can small talk exist in a world that seems so overwhelmingly bigger-than-life. Amplified emotions and shaky appendages don't mix well with hors d'oeuvres and chit chat (or they don't for me).
I have a fifteen year old son - and had I stayed married the first time it would have been twenty three years this November.
I am always in awe of people who can make it past twenty years! I threw in the Martex at thirteen years and I've lugged the guilt around with me through the last ten years.
Good post, Greg A.
I love the ones that make me think and require that I go back and re-read before I respond.
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