Posted by Penny on March 8, 2002, at 8:26:35
In reply to Re: How depression starts » Penny, posted by Zo on March 8, 2002, at 1:25:22
Zo,
Thanks for your thoughts on this! I really appreciate having someone to bounce these ideas off of...
My moods are just all over the place. Don't know what to think right now, as I was 'flying high' the past couple of days and now I can feel myself heading downhill AGAIN. That would be the feeling I'm most familiar with.
I see my pdoc today. Saw a therapist (not mine, as she is on maternity leave, but a 'substitute') yesterday, but, of course, she doesn't have a picture of what I was like before so she couldn't really compare how I was yesterday to anything. I tried explaining it to her, but she wasn't overly helpful. Not that I expected her to be.
I don't think I have a clear cycling pattern. My moods just fluctuate sooo rapidly. Sometimes multiple times over the course of a day. I'm extremely sensitive to external influences, positive and negative (i.e. if I perceive someone is angry at me, even with no good reason to believe that they are). Anyway, this is driving me crazy!!! I really have a fear that I'm going to continue doing this up-and-down, up-and-down thing with my emotions for the rest of my life. And it is precisely that fear that makes me wonder if it's even worth it.
Penny
> Hi Penny,
>
> I've been told, more than once, that med-induced mania isn't diagnostice of anything. More horse pucky. Bipolar II is precisely so devestating because it can take years--and years--for all those not-quite-disastrous symptoms to add up. I'm sorry, did you cycle before Celexa? And, this is not something to trifle with, in my experience. Have you seen your pdoc yet? Where is he/she at on all this? It can get soooo serious.
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> Zo
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