Posted by Quintal on August 23, 2008, at 17:22:46
Maybe it's best if I start a seperate thread on this.. T says she can't get an idea of what I'm like as a person. I have no identity as far as she can see. I have no sense of self, or not a stable one anyway. We were talking last session about how sometimes I don't know where I begin and another person ends. I become absorbed into or engulfed by other people. This might seem questionable to some people who have known me for a while... but I think this might be the reason why I've been frantically looking for a label since starting therapy - something to tie me down and fix me in one place. I AM___ borderline/psychopathic/autistic. She let me run with this for a little while, but now she's probing me for clues as to who I am, as opposed to what I am. It would be embarrassing to admit just how far my inner idenitity has changed over the last ten years. As for an outer one, I don't think I've had one for a very long time. More than half my life anyway.
I don't know why I'm even posting this. Maybe just to tie up loose threads and make some sense out of it all.
Q
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