Posted by wishingstar on April 17, 2007, at 17:28:25
I must be truly desperate if I'm posting. I know I always regret it when I do...
I dont even have the energy to take myself to the hospital if I wanted to. I'm miserable. I cant function. I cancelled a 3 hour session with a client yesterday because I just couldnt see her. Whatever. I dont even really care. I've been sitting in front of my computer for probably 2 hours really doing nothing. Just sitting. That's after sleeping in until 10am (10 1/2 hours of sleep), and taking a nap not even an hour later... I didnt have any clients today so didnt go to work, but I do have to go tomorrow...
On the new emsam patch for about 10 days now but they irritate my skin so badly I've pulled most of them off before the full 24 hours.
I shouldnt be in the hospital because I'm probably honestly not going to hurt myself (suicide anyway). I do want to die but I dont feel like a huge huge danger right now. I'm just so depressed I cant do anything. The end. And the hospital wouldnt fix that. I dont want my meds changed right now and plus I see my dr on Mon anyway. I'd miss work.. not then I'm of any worth there anyway but I need the money. Theyd hold me for a few days, make me talk about social skills and assertiveness and whatever other bs in groups (I used to TEACH groups on those topics!) and itd be completely unhelpful. No reason to go there. I just need SOMEONE. I dont need to be held for a few days just for fun.
I know no one knows what to say. Thats fine.
poster:wishingstar
thread:750780
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