Posted by alexandra_k on October 29, 2005, at 8:06:01
In reply to Re: i don't know anything anymore..., posted by alexandra_k on October 29, 2005, at 7:54:35
and i do wonder...
i do wonder how much it is a crockthe world is cold
thats the problem
the world is cold
it doesn't care
it doesn't give a damn
one way or the other
it doesn't have an opinion
because it just isand people
people can be like that too
out of sight out of mind
as the saying goes
and that happens
be quiet for a while...
and all thats left is a shadow
a dim recollection
and you may as well not exist really
infact it is preferable not to
because existence is painful
or at least mine is
and i really don't see...
that there is any hope
though maybe to be fair
it wasn't that i thought someone could save me
so much as i hoped to god that someone could
because i don't do so well on myself
never have
but then...
story of my life
etc
etc
what is wrong with me?
doesn't really matter...
of no consequence
sometimes...
i do believe its time to self destruct
its like i have to put my foot down at some point
enough!
things can't continue on like this...
i can't continue on like this...
and hope for change?i think the fates have kicked in...
because the fact is it is about being unwanted
of no consequence at allpeople pretending you don't exist
story of my life
and i don't think things like that change
because something is wrong with me
and it doesn't matter what it is
the point is that...
there is something wrong
though people don't see that
because they don't see me in the first placeand if they did...
if they did see me...
they'd just turn away in disgustmaybe they saw me after all
and i don't know how to make this stop...
poster:alexandra_k
thread:563562
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20051025/msgs/572994.html