Posted by alexandra_k on October 7, 2005, at 20:15:26
In reply to Re: going to quit therapy » alexandra_k, posted by rainbowbrite on October 7, 2005, at 19:49:36
> No worries, I didn't feel ignored.
:-)
Good.
Babblemails get sent to a different address (a work one I'm somewhat ashamed to admit) so I get them almost immediately... Not many people have my other email address and so because I don't get too many sent to there I'm a little more lax about collecting them and sometimes only check every couple of days.> I actually thought that my email assisted in your decision lol.
:-)
It helped validate my decision in hindsight.>Let me have my narcisistic moment heehee ;-). It *was* my email...right? When you posted your update I figured you had read it and that was your response, it just made sense to me lol.
Well... It did help validate my decision. Because you are right... When you want to reestablish a connection with someone then you really need to be able to send that invitation out and then remove yourself from it enough so that it won't destroy you if you never even get a response. And it is hard... Because you always will wonder a bit 'did they get that?' 'did they mean to ignore me?' 'don't they even care about me a little?' 'did they ever care about me?' and one can go nuts with all that...
and so...
better not
better not
and i guess i just figured...
that even if she was keen to re-establish contact
that might not work out.
especially given my 'episodes'
and my habit of sending / posting
big whines...
and thats not appropriate
because she isn't my t anymore
and she isn't going to be my t again
and so...
i think i just need to let it go
and appreciate what she did give me
and that she did help me
and that she did care
but that sometimes circumstances...
mean that people move on.
> Ok since you're making it!okay, but you will have to show me how :-)
>I will swim there, but wait maybe you could meet me in, uh Hawaii or even the Cook Islands :-)
uh yeah... i suppose we could try... or maybe Australia??? have you ever been to Melbourne??
> Leave it there all day contraptions!! lmao it can only have been sitting for an hour lol then its gone bad :-)Oh. sorry - my mistake ;-)
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