Posted by littleone on April 5, 2005, at 21:48:57
In reply to Re: suicidal ideation an addiction? *possible trig » B2chica, posted by Poet on April 5, 2005, at 20:39:21
> Lately my T has been trying to get me to look back at bad things and knowing what I know now, what I could have done to defend myself. She tries to get me to say *I would have told someone who could help me.*
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> What I say each and every time is *I would have killed myself.* Last session she said that is not an acceptable method of protection.Oh Poet, this makes me feel so terrible. When I was younger, it just never occured to me to consider suicide as an option, maybe because it was what bad people do and I had to be a good girl at all costs (no offense intended to anyone, that was just a silly childhood belief I had).
Knowing then what I know now, I too think "I would have killed myself".
I'm afraid that telling someone who could help me is still not really an option I consider even today.
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