Posted by Pandabear on April 25, 2004, at 16:54:31
Last Thursday, I went to my session with my therapist who hit on an issue of mine that is quite disturbing for me. It is something that I was going to talk about when I felt I was ready to..yet she beat me to it and brought it up before I did. Now, it is like my whole world is changing and I am losing control of what I thought I was in control of. My therapist is not going to let me not talk about it, which is fine but I am finding myself becoming really depressed and I am isolating myself from the rest of my family and friends. I Know it has only been a few days since I saw her but since then, I am not in contact with my family, and I have spent my weekend very down..today I watched tv all day and im just really depressed. This past Fri. Evening I ended up getting really emotional and started telling my mom that I didnt want anyone to touch me or talk to me or hurt me and that i just wanted to be left alone. I know that when I go to talk to my therapist this week im going to tell her the same, yet she is not going to let it go. I just wish I could rewind and everything would be fine. I hate my life right now. I hate it that I feel like im not in control. My therapists are in control because they have my best interest in mind, but I dont want to deal with what they want me to and im scared. I dont know what to do. Sorry if I sound like a baby..but im really scared. I feel traped like I cannot escape...
poster:Pandabear
thread:339904
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