Posted by JahL on August 10, 2004, at 17:28:46
In reply to Re: have i got social phobia? » JahL, posted by carriejane on August 10, 2004, at 5:51:03
> Hi J, I have made an appointment with doc on thursday, I am going to ask him about rivitrol clonazepam, because the anxiety is pretty constant, its stopping me doing the things i need to do.
Hi Carrie.
>You know that feeling of knowing you are capable of sooo much more yet the fear is too much to go through.
Uh huh. S phobia can restrict your every movement, w/o a shadow...
>Can you tell me what the other 2 medicines are and what they do please?
Will have a stab tomorrow. Am very stoned right now (registered smoker - cannot sleep or get through the day w/o it) and am having cognitive difficulties anyway.
> Thanks alot for helping.
> Oh by the way i do have a history of drug addiction, mainly heroin and crack, so doc may be put off by that.Interesting. I have imbibed vast amounts of virtually every drug bar the two you mention. I smoked crack once but I didn't have much of a choice at the time (looong story involving a big knife...).
Fortunately my pdoc used to run an alcoholism clinic and so isn't prejudiced against the likes of us. I've also seen a neurologist at The Priory who confirmed that drugs were not the cause of my problems (I knew that) - they were just a form of self medication for a confused lad.
I've always steered clear of heroin because *I just know* it would banish my pain and temporarily kill the depression. I would become hooked in an instant.
I know I'm opioid responsive because I have taken low dose Methadone (5ml daily for cognition and energy benefits) for a few years now (diverted source).
*(BTW if anyone from America is reading this and is lucky enough to be prescribed low dose Vicodin, and I know there's a few of you, I would give the earth to be put in contact with yr pdoc, via personal email so Dr B doesn't wipe the post and also for obvious reasons. I'm no crank; I've been here for years and my medical history is well documented on this site. Having tried in excess of over 50 drugs with only limited success, this could be my last throw of the dice. Literally. I have not abused drugs for over 7 years and have full references from my pdoc of 7 years. Anyone? Please? No?)*
>Although i know i used heroin to relieve my anxiety, not the right choice i know but i happened upon it and the relief was very seductive. Trouble was i grew a tolerance which lead to even darker places. Im clean from habit nearly 5 yrs now though.
I'm pleased for you. Maybe we'll talk about H sometime, if you're comfortable with it. It fascinates me. As you say, very seductive in a hedonistic kinda way. But very dangerous of course...
> Ive rambled lol x
I do the same.
J.
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