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Posted by NikkiT2 on February 4, 2006, at 8:46:33
So, we're now into February and this cloud of mine just isn't passing.. and everything is starting to feel so damned pointless.
but I'm too scared to go back to meds.. I'm too scared to admit to my family that I'm heading back to that point again (as was said to me yesterday by my mother when I said I was feeling tired and stressed.. "what have you got to feel tired and stressed about".. well, maybe having to leave for work at 7am, and getting home past 7pm, having more work than I can cope with or even focus on, having given up smoking amonth ago and finding it hard, not sleeping well and suffering bad bad dreams, living in a small crappy flat that has no room to breathe, and finding out that the procedure to reduce the chronic arm pain I have won't be done till atleast November, and having lost my Gran just over a week ago and going to her funeral yesterday.. but, no, nothing at all really..)
I don't want to face all those side effects from meds again.. I'm giving accupuncture a bash on Tuesday, but I can't afford to have it very regularly..
Where do I go now?
Nikki xx
Posted by Dinah on February 4, 2006, at 11:12:18
In reply to this cloud isn't passing.., posted by NikkiT2 on February 4, 2006, at 8:46:33
I'm sorry Nikki. :(
It seems like you have more than enough environmental stressors to account for how you're feeling.
Is therapy an option?
Posted by fairywings on February 4, 2006, at 14:59:12
In reply to this cloud isn't passing.., posted by NikkiT2 on February 4, 2006, at 8:46:33
I'm sorry Nikki. It doesn't sound like you're getting very much compassion now, when you need it the most.
Have you tried all diff. kinds of meds? So many have made me depressed or anxious, but others have been good w/few side effects. Is your pdoc willing to try diff. things?Sending cyber hugs,
fw
Posted by Phillipa on February 4, 2006, at 21:19:19
In reply to Re: this cloud isn't passing.. » NikkiT2, posted by fairywings on February 4, 2006, at 14:59:12
Nikki, I sorry you're feeling so bad now. You have many stresses. I think I agree would theraphy and some meds be an option for you. Love Phillipa
Posted by deirdrehbrt on February 4, 2006, at 22:12:16
In reply to this cloud isn't passing.., posted by NikkiT2 on February 4, 2006, at 8:46:33
Nikki,
I'm sorry that things are so tough for you right now. I'm not sure where you live, but if you're in the northern part of the northern hemisphere, you're also dealing with diminished sunlight for the past few months. The good news on that front is that it's getting lighter more with each passing day.
As others have said, with all that you have going on, at least having someone to talk to about it might help. It doesn't sound like your family is extremely helpful in that way, so a professional might be in order. I hope that things turn around for you soon.
--Dee
Posted by Racer on February 4, 2006, at 22:47:51
In reply to this cloud isn't passing.., posted by NikkiT2 on February 4, 2006, at 8:46:33
Hey, babe -- I'm sorry you're suffering so much right now, Nikki. Believe me, I can empathize with you -- just when you need the most relief, you're getting more and more stressors piling up on you. I wish I could offer something to help you.
Bout the only thing I cna think of, though, is that Wellbutrin has been helping me with smoking, though not resolving my depression. If you've ever had any luck with it, it might help kill two birds with one stone? Help the depression, and help the smoking.
Whatever you do, though, Nikki -- I still care about you.
Posted by gardenergirl on February 4, 2006, at 22:59:49
In reply to Re: this cloud isn't passing.. » NikkiT2, posted by Racer on February 4, 2006, at 22:47:51
Hi Nikki,
I don't have much to add. Just that with all you've experienced in the last several months, it does add up. I wish it didn't. I wish it made us stronger with each new hurt. But sometimes it just gets too much for our bodies, minds, and souls to just keep on at status quo.I hope the acupuncture is helpful. Perhaps there is a practitioner who can do it on a sliding scale or pro bono?
And feel free to babblemail me or email me if you want to chat about your Gran. I'm finding that now that most of the logistical stuff related to my own gramma's death are done (travel, funeral, dealing with some of her things, etc.), the grief is coming out now in unexpected ways and catches me off guard. Maybe some of that is happening to you, too?
((((Nikki))))
gg
Posted by crazy teresa on February 5, 2006, at 13:04:36
In reply to this cloud isn't passing.., posted by NikkiT2 on February 4, 2006, at 8:46:33
I'm so sorry. Moms are sometimes the last ones to 'get it'.
Have you considered attending a grief support group? You would be with others who are hurting from a loss as you are. It won't take the pain away, but it could be a comfort to you to go.
The sun is shining out today. Maybe a walk in the sun while you think of the fun times with Gran would be good.
Wish I could help you...
Posted by alexandra_k on February 5, 2006, at 18:20:52
In reply to this cloud isn't passing.., posted by NikkiT2 on February 4, 2006, at 8:46:33
(((((Nikki)))))
yeah... the diminished sunlight thing as well. i find that i tend to feel more depressed in winter and we don't get the severe reduction in light and rays that you guys do.
that being said... it is a horrible feeling :-( i hope you start to feel better soon
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