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Posted by Amanda29 on August 24, 2008, at 14:40:18
Last night, I walked into my guest room and there was a woman sitting on a stack of books..wearing a black dress...she didnt say anything..she just looked at me and I turned around and walked out of the room, went into my room and waited for about 20 minutes and then went back into the room and she wasnt there anymore.
I never have hallucinated before and this was so real. I didnt get freaked out..just confused. I dont know if I should be concerned or what. I am on medications for Bipolar disorder, Borderline Personality disorder and Major Depression...and a few other things..but what does this mean? Could I have just hallucinated because I am under a lot of stress...or could this mean that my medications need to be looked at?
My T has told me to not call him unless it is an emergency..and to me..that constituted an emergency..but I DID NOT call him...I emailed him. Besides..what could he have done?
I am not crazy and I dont want him thinking I am crazy, but I told him in an email that if I do hallucinate again, my fear is that whoever it is will make me do things I shouldnt do..and that scares me.
I dont know what I should do..should I be worried about this or just let it go?
I am hoping that was a one time only experience.
Posted by seldomseen on August 24, 2008, at 14:46:22
In reply to I hallucinated..and I am freaking out., posted by Amanda29 on August 24, 2008, at 14:40:18
Did you know that it was a hallucination when you say her, or did you think she was real?
I would freak out too I think.
Seldom
Posted by Amanda29 on August 24, 2008, at 14:49:20
In reply to Re: I hallucinated..and I am freaking out., posted by seldomseen on August 24, 2008, at 14:46:22
I knew that it was not real...I walked into the room and did a double glance because I couldnt believe it but I knew that I was in the house with just my dogs and my cat and no one else...but I was weirded out by seeing her and so I quickly left the room...I know that some of my medications I am on have hallucinating as a possible side effect...but I have never had this happen until now..
Posted by susan47 on August 24, 2008, at 16:14:42
In reply to Re: I hallucinated..and I am freaking out. » seldomseen, posted by Amanda29 on August 24, 2008, at 14:49:20
Amanda you should take yourself to a hospital emergency room and get yourself checked out; you definitely need to have your meds looked at ASAP in any case. And you should not be alone right now, either. Is there someone you can call and talk to?
Posted by Amanda29 on August 24, 2008, at 16:18:58
In reply to This is important, don't ignore it » Amanda29, posted by susan47 on August 24, 2008, at 16:14:42
Hey. This happened yesterday...and I havent had anything happen sense then...I am not feeling like hurting myself...I have just been under a lot of stress lately and I am hoping that it is coming from that...but I have never had a problem with my medications...
I dont want to take myself to the emergency room because I am not a threat to myself..if I waS hearing voices that were telling me to do things that were not right..I would personally drive myself over there..considering that I live 30 seconds from the hospital...but I dont think that I need to do that just yet.
I have my T that I can talk to and I actually emailed him and told him what happened but he told me to only call him in an emergency and I didnt know if this constituted an emergency..it wasnt like I was being told to hurt myself or someone else...you know?
Posted by Emily Elizabeth on August 24, 2008, at 16:47:16
In reply to Re: This is important, don't ignore it » susan47, posted by Amanda29 on August 24, 2008, at 16:18:58
...don't be afraid to call your T. I think he'd want to know what is going on.
Take care of yourself.
Best,
EE
Posted by obsidian on August 24, 2008, at 17:31:47
In reply to I hallucinated..and I am freaking out., posted by Amanda29 on August 24, 2008, at 14:40:18
it's ok to call your T, is he/she your pdoc too?
if not, you might want to let them know too.take care amanda,
sid
Posted by Amanda29 on August 24, 2008, at 17:35:42
In reply to Re: I hallucinated..and I am freaking out. » Amanda29, posted by obsidian on August 24, 2008, at 17:31:47
My Pdoc doesnt know yet...I was going to wait and see what My T says..Im just hesitating because we had such a major issue with boundaries...and whereas I feel this is important...he might not think it is...I think if I were being "told" by a voice in my head to actually HURT myself..that would be an emergency..but just beacuse I saw something...it might not be considered a big deal.
Posted by obsidian on August 24, 2008, at 17:47:52
In reply to Re: I hallucinated..and I am freaking out. » obsidian, posted by Amanda29 on August 24, 2008, at 17:35:42
well, this one is new to you
maybe T will advise you whether to call pdoc?
Posted by Phillipa on August 24, 2008, at 20:01:50
In reply to Re: I hallucinated..and I am freaking out. » Amanda29, posted by obsidian on August 24, 2008, at 17:47:52
Are you on ambien? Known to cause people to sleep walk and such. The stress could have caused a first time occurance. Oh I just remembered my Daughter when about three said she saw two mice dressed in wedding attire near my first Husband's and my bedroom door. We were having marital problem her subconscious must have said I want my parents to stay married. Just a Thought. Phillipa
Posted by Nadezda on August 24, 2008, at 20:09:06
In reply to Re: I hallucinated..and I am freaking out. » obsidian, posted by Amanda29 on August 24, 2008, at 17:35:42
It might not be the kind of emergency that necessitates a phone call, but it's certainly a very important thing. I can totally understand being freaked out by it-- It really depends on how you're feeling and when your next appointment is.
On one hand, while I would wait, I can also see thinking your T might feel you should see your pdoc. If it does happen again, or more times, then I think you definitely need to see your pdoc right away to see if he thinks a change in meds would help.
Hope you're feeling like you can hold on until your next T appointment. One thing to discuss with your T is examples of an emergency, so you have a way of knowing better whether you should call.
Nadezda
Posted by seldomseen on August 25, 2008, at 6:32:56
In reply to Re: I hallucinated..and I am freaking out. » seldomseen, posted by Amanda29 on August 24, 2008, at 14:49:20
I think the key here is that you knew it wasn't real. That tells me that there isn't something more serious going on, just freaky, and a meds adjustment may be in order.
Did you interact with her in any way or just see her?
Posted by backseatdriver on August 25, 2008, at 6:46:24
In reply to Re: I hallucinated..and I am freaking out. » Amanda29, posted by seldomseen on August 25, 2008, at 6:32:56
Something similar happened to me once on Wellbutrin. It may well be your medication, not you. But it's definitely important and unsettling - I would want to take steps with T and pdoc to be sure it didn't happen again.
-BSD
Posted by Amanda29 on August 25, 2008, at 10:43:45
In reply to Re: I hallucinated..and I am freaking out. » Amanda29, posted by seldomseen on August 25, 2008, at 6:32:56
No...I didnt interact...I just saw her and turned around and went into my room. It was just really weird. It happened so fast.
I am scared to mention anything to my pdoc because I dont know what she will think about it, but my T knows ...he just hasnt responded to my email.
I didnt want to mention it to anyone because it doesnt seem like a major deal..but then again, it has never happened before.
Posted by lemonaide on August 25, 2008, at 17:33:13
In reply to Re: I hallucinated..and I am freaking out. » seldomseen, posted by Amanda29 on August 25, 2008, at 10:43:45
Now wonder you freaked out, I probably would have called 911 and made a total fool of myself. What has your T said, have you called?
Posted by susan47 on August 25, 2008, at 18:15:23
In reply to I hallucinated..and I am freaking out., posted by Amanda29 on August 24, 2008, at 14:40:18
You said you had a fear that whoever you see when you hallucinate will make you do things you shouldn't do.
Then you gloss over this this little statement you'd made - also to your T - in an email, when you post back to pretty much basically say I'm overreacting.
So Amanda29, what is it with you, do you enjoy seeing things that aren't there? Why on earth do you take it lightly on one hand and heavily on the other?
What is it that you really want here?
Posted by susan47 on August 25, 2008, at 18:17:54
In reply to I hallucinated..and I am freaking out., posted by Amanda29 on August 24, 2008, at 14:40:18
You said,
"I am not crazy and I dont want him thinking I am crazy, but I told him in an email that if I do hallucinate again, my fear is that whoever it is will make me do things I shouldnt do..and that scares me"
Exactly what scares you, what you said or the possibility that you'll do things you shouldn't do? Doing things you shouldn't do all on your own, or at the behest of an hallucination?
Posted by Amanda29 on August 25, 2008, at 18:23:28
In reply to Amanda29 » Amanda29, posted by susan47 on August 25, 2008, at 18:15:23
Im not trying to say that you are overreacting, what I am trying to let you know is that my experience to ME was not something that warranted a trip to the emergency room. Had I seen her and she was telling me to go hurt myself or hurts someone else, THAT would be something worth going to get help about. But, that did not happen to me, I just saw her and that was it. It freaked me out, I came and got on psycho babble to hear from others that have had this experience and to hear from people that could offer me advice and opinions on what they thought I should do. I dont belive that what happened to me was so severe to go to the hospital.
I do not enjoy seeing things...I didnt enjoy this..it confused me. My main concern was wether or not I should tell my T...and
I did. I told him and he told me the rule of thumb is seeing things one time is an incidence, twice is a coiencidence, and three times is something worth paying more attention to...so he feels that I am ok.
I read every response that people give to me on this site and I appreciated your concern and opinion in what I should do. If I felt like I was a danger to myself (which is not the case) I would seek immediate help.
Thank you for your concern and I am sorry if I offended anyone, including yourself.
amanda
Posted by Amanda29 on August 25, 2008, at 18:25:44
In reply to Re: I hallucinated..and I am freaking out. » Amanda29, posted by susan47 on August 25, 2008, at 18:17:54
What scares me is the idea of a hallucination telling me do to something...anything..but mainly telling me to hurt myself. THAT WOULD BE WHEN I WOULD SEEK HELP.
Posted by rskontos on August 25, 2008, at 18:48:01
In reply to Re: Amanda29 » susan47, posted by Amanda29 on August 25, 2008, at 18:23:28
Amanda,
When I first read your post, I felt like a singular incident would not be an incident that was something to go to the ER. But certainly something to tell T or p-doc about. I myself have had hallunations, sorry I can't spell it right now and am too lazy to look it up, and I told my p-doc who is also my t. He was not too concerned because i know they were not real. I hear voices too and he knows I know they are parts of me, my inner identities. I am DD. So as long as you, or at least in my case, know real from not real, things are ok, I am ok. (Not total sure about ok but not anything to go to the ER about).
And certainly meds can and do trigger things. cymbalta triggered my first thoughts of suicide and let that cat out of bag for good. I eventually went off of it. The thoughts subsided but have not ever gone completely away but I can control myself. thankfully.
I would call pdoc immediately if I get too crazy about my dark thoughts as I call them to him.
Take care of yourself, you did not offend anyone.
rsk
Posted by susan47 on August 26, 2008, at 11:32:13
In reply to Re: I hallucinated..and I am freaking out. » susan47, posted by Amanda29 on August 25, 2008, at 18:25:44
What if the hallucination told you to hurt someone else?
Posted by susan47 on August 26, 2008, at 11:34:27
In reply to Re: Amanda29 » Amanda29, posted by rskontos on August 25, 2008, at 18:48:01
Perhaps I offended you, though, in which case I am sorry. I am concerned, not offended, and in fact the only thing that offends me is certain T's.
Posted by susan47 on August 26, 2008, at 11:35:38
In reply to Re: Amanda29 » Amanda29, posted by rskontos on August 25, 2008, at 18:48:01
Or anywhere else I'm sure.
But I am an angry woman Amanda, with a mission.
Never angry at you though. Please remember that.
Posted by Amanda29 on August 26, 2008, at 15:49:35
In reply to Re: I hallucinated..and I am freaking out. » Amanda29, posted by susan47 on August 26, 2008, at 11:32:13
If the hallucination ever told me to hurt someone else, I would call my therapist (I know he is readily availiable..) and then my family, and I would proceed to the emergency room...IF i thought that I was going to act on it...which I pray that that will never happen. Im not mentally gone, I do still have a brain and even though I suffer from depression and mood swings, I still am competent..I will be able to tell the difference between right and wrong...and just like if I was suicidal..I would konw it was wrong, but I would still make myself get help..
Im not concerned about my ever wanting to hurt another person...I am more concerned about doing osmething to myself. But I have a plan for if that were to ever happen.
Thank you for your concern.
Posted by susan47 on August 26, 2008, at 18:07:36
In reply to Re: I hallucinated..and I am freaking out. » susan47, posted by Amanda29 on August 26, 2008, at 15:49:35
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