Posted by alexandra_k on April 23, 2014, at 22:44:05
In reply to Re: going ahead, posted by alexandra_k on April 22, 2014, at 20:16:02
So I did get to walk yesterday. Walked a Trail I've Never Walked Before, even, which is a Big Event for me. Since I tend to get stuck in... Same old, same old. The mushies are out. Saw one that might have been one... Bit too conspicuous to take a look... But I spy people scratchings... And other varieties are out. So... Out they are. Then it's just a matter of getting up with the birds, really. Seeing how many kids there are out biking the trails at 6am... I'm... Uh... Not entirely sure I can be bothered. But in a way... I feel I should... Can dry them out. Save them for a rainy day. Or something.
I didn't mention it before but I got a big whack of a fine from the library. Messed up an overnight renewal for easter Friday (like, one of the three days of the year they are closed so you can get 2 hour desk reserve books out for a whole day). $180, they reckoned. Because I renewed them within 2 hours of closing but it is supposed to be within 1 hour of closing. I wrote them a hefty email about communal study spaces and tragedy of the commons and a billion copies all being placed on 2 hour desk reserve for classes that aren't even being taught in this f*ck*ng semester... But I didn't swear... Anyway... They reduced the fine... Out of kindness... Or something... Just makes me feel horrible because I'm contientious, typically. Loss of faith in the library. $180 textbooks... 2 of them... I need them, really... And one more I suppose... Maybe a couple more, actually... I have the PDF's... But it's just not the same. Can't explain it. Can't build up a mental picture without running my fingers about the page. I don't know what to say. Feel... Raw.
Top floor of the info commons has actually been a really good study space over the break. Did some more there today. Good. Might go back. It is focused now. I suppose it will get all ruined next week... When all the people come back because class has started... Or maybe the worst offenders will start not coming to class... I don't know...
I'm okay. It's all okay... Everything is wonderful, really. Feeling a bit raw... Wish I did have a clinician I clicked with that I could see... Someone to... Commisserate with me when I'm feeling low. Take some pride in my achievements. Something... Feeling kinda lonely, I guess.
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