Posted by rjlockhart37 on April 15, 2014, at 20:42:21
im at home right now, the air conditioner smells like it has mold and im sitting here paranoid ill get sick, the smell....and 2nd of all i had too much coffee.....feel like i'mm gonna spin off into the sky....
anyways....i'm almost finished with school remideal program, and im getting into PC concepts this summer....and the hopefully this next semster to get into more advanced PC stuff....still limited on this, i have alot to study....and caffeine is not invited to my study party.....
but uuuuuggg too much stuff that i am sad about....and one thing is i keep it to myself....coke bottle being shaken up and pressure is about to speww the cap off......
another thing on my mind, ill look at facebook and see people's profiles....no im not a stalker ... but ill see people that i once knew...or, someone i want connect too and be a friend, but i am not a message/phone person, all the messages i sent people i didnt say the right thing.....no self pity party....it's all the way you say it to people....some messages are a non response dead end question, and then others if you just say the right thing you can connect with people or in my case all the people i've tried to meet or talk with.....seriously...their intrests or an ice breaker sentence....
another thing i did the last night....i got a spell and magick website, yes shame on me....and i played tarot cards.....let me say, that freaked me the hell out....it gave direct awnsers to my situations.....it said "a hyper active child" from the past.. "person living in fear because of unapplication in life" "being stuck in a situation because of someone, or a choice" "person dwelling in negativity despite oppurtunies"
.my eye balls litterly almost popped out of socket like one of those tiny toon cartoon characters....but it also said bad luck is coming,..well...wooopee doo! my life has a been bad luck for a long time, that's not changin anything LOL but i'm growing....and i'm changing so that's a good luck sign....but my message for this post, in my place, is once you make a choice, not a choice to go eat, or moe the lawn.....but an inner choice, ... i'm changing....i've changed much since 04 when i posted here...my mind changed, my personality has changed, my speech, and it's all the belief system and the visulization of what i want to be....like i wrote a post in the psychology board....imaginging what person you want to be and do over and over again, and then practice in the mirror....it really works.....
so....who put the mustache on the lady??? somebody....and the lady has a mustache now....that's a change....i don't knonw i don't knnow what else to write....
imagine and believe.....that's my message...
r
not a scholar but understand distress.....
"unheard pain, is the told through good company"
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