Posted by alexandra_k on April 15, 2014, at 1:38:53
i am. the last couple days... i think i'm about the happiest i've ever been... happiest i've been for a long while.
i really have come out the other side of the quitting of smoking. and the drinking and the drugs, too. get prescriptions for benzos to take rarely - on occasion... that seems to be enough.
i've been playing 'avernum: escape from the pit'. which has an interesting story... and is a turn based rpg... just the way i like it... though i'm not entirely convinced about their skill trees... it is immersive... with a mature (as in subtle and not 'good vs bad') plot.
i almost felt guilty. but then i remembered... i did well on the test, so i don't need to be frantic about study over the break. and... i enjoy games... like how other people enjoy going camping with their friends. so... making sure i take breaks for shopping and cooking and showers and gym :) i will go for a walk tomorrow... maybe visit the art gallery...
the weather has turned brisk. scarves and beanies. it makes me very happy. lots of leaves on the ground. maybe first frost for easter after all. there is something about the cold and the dark... coming back to a warm safe haven... to a comfort food home cooked meal. macaroni cheese is going down well at the moment (aka mac and cheese)... and chicken soup is great in the slow cooker...
i'm very happy here.
i have to go and visit mother. probably next week. shudder. i... don't really want to. but i should. and i need to set up my old black macbook and give that to her... maybe i'll put linux on it since it is running a really old os and i don't have disks to upgrade it... no longer software supported...
anyway... i'm happy. things are good. life is good. and there is... the promise of things getting better.
last lab was better. the setup was different... lots of drawing so i could do half of it before the lab. and the TA was nicer to me. now he knows i'm not a hopeless dumbass like he thought i was (honestly, NOBODY fails labs, but i failed my 2nd lab)... since grading my test... the next few labs seem to be variations on the first couple... but this time a little more explicit instruction on precisely how we are supposed to do things and marks for accuracy. good. that was part of why i couldn't do them -- i knew full well i didn't know how. which was upsetting to me. and i don't know why i should copy people who don't know what they are doing. and i don't see how 'playing lab' is supposed to be fun.
anyway...
happy holidays.
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