Posted by rjlockhart37 on March 31, 2013, at 0:17:14
In reply to King of Pain, posted by Phil on March 29, 2013, at 12:25:51
i liked your post....its hard to tell people about my pain, beause 1...they will say "i'm sorry that happened" nothing they can give or do will help....all the comfortin words and civil acts of trying to say they care.....
i just don't let the inner thing that tears at me when im alone be broadcasted, i post here....and really i shouldnt be just parading my emotions, for people to have pity.....they way i see it, its a emotion that has to be handled with inside. I've ran to people and tried to tell, all i got was being critized and then they walk off and say good luck. See its stupid, i never want to ever do that again.well anyways...my relationship with God is on hold, its during a dead period but all i can tell you phil....the signs he discretly gave that shocked me realizing it was not a simple coincidence, there was a quick severe storm right after i wrote a long prayer to him that i begged for my soul to be written in the lambs book of life after i died, and prayed on some personl issues. It just.....that was a large realization...and there also where the smaller signs i had that i could just say they happened. I don't want to be optimistic and a false motivated person, but that really made my belief realize there is God, and also forces of darkness....that create some of these disorders. Anyways too much yakkin from me lol.
the pain of rejection, people walking off when im talking to them, give that wtf is wrong with you look, acting there sympathy and then leave the room and say i hate that guy, its really bad...but defense mechansims are good, and learning to cope until its better. But yes it is a choice....but still the pain is there even if you choose to not have it.
anyways....lol that's my 2 cents
r
not a scholar but understand distress
Med:
Prozac 60mg
Lamictal 200mg
Zyprexa 20mg
Nuvigil 250mg
encourage you to avoid false beliefs
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