Posted by cloudydaze on June 25, 2010, at 19:04:19
Since we last spoke, I've been through many ups and downs (such is my life) and i will fill you in a bit:
in October, 2009 my grandma who was living with us, passed away. The same month, I had my heart torn out by a guy. I wont bother you with the details. 2009 was a horrible year. I was hoping 2010 would be an improvement. In January, I quit my job at the coffee shop, and decided to pursue a freelance design career. Needless to say, work is slow.
I did succeed in putting together a pretty decent Zombie Walk (cuz i'm into that sort of thing!), and made some money selling t-shirts i designed for it, and made a lot of good business contacts. In May, i had my heart torn out AGAIN (man i'm good at that...), and currently I'm being avoided by my new "love interest" fun fun.
I'm still virtually unemployed, though I think i'm going to get a part time something while I do my freelance (no way in hell am i going back to the coffee shop). I've got a second zombie walk coming up in october (yay!) so that's a chance to do something substantial.
Oh and did I mention Ive now been off meds for a year, AND I've succeeded in losing 50 pounds! Physically i feel pretty good!
Recently though, I've realized i really need to get a new psychiatric work up. I'm pretty sure that I have Borderline Personality Disoder instead of OR in addition to my Bipolar. The biggest reason is that i really have abandonment/loneliness issues, and trouble with obsessing over relationships. And sometimes I lose my sense of self...it just fits better. So soon I'm going to go back to counseling (which I havent done in over a year since my last one dumped my insurance and decided to charge me 600+ dollars, which i cant pay). Wish me luck.
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