Posted by stargazer2 on June 5, 2010, at 19:19:55
In reply to Trying to figure out how much time I have left..., posted by Enigma on May 20, 2010, at 9:23:07
YOu are still very young and although you have reached rock bottom, that does not mean the end is near.
I have you beat with everything, meds, jobs, length of illness and I'm in a similar situation as you in that I have seen the end and often say what's next...
But you have children, so that has to be the reason for you to continue to try and get better.
I was depressed in my teens and said no way would I pass on my depression to another human being as I had already suffered enough in my life by the time I was 14 or 15 and it continued from that point, despite finishing college (you can be intelligent and insame) and getting married.
I too was on diability and just went back 2 years ago but I'm already out of a job again. I think there is just real bad stuff out in the working world and it is much safer to stay home and not work, even though the income from disability doesn't compare to what I'm sure you were making as what you said was a high income job. Mine was moderate income job, not high, but still significant.
Disability will never cover all of one's income and that is why people that make good money take out disability policies for themselves, esepcially when you are the primary bread winner and responsbility for providing for children and a spouse. That is another reason I did not have kids, I knew I could never be assured that my depression would not prevent me from working throughout my life and that has been the case for sure.
Hope you can get beyond the place you are at now, I'm trying my damndest to do this.
Don't focus on finding another woman at this point...no one wants to get into a asituation that is a liability. Focus on making yourself whole and perhaps, thinking about working again, as that will be the only way you can gain your self esteem back.
Remember, you are still young and could potentially turn this aroung, keep an open mind and don't assume once disabled, always disabled. That would be giving up and you could turn this around with the right treatment.
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