Posted by Deneb on October 9, 2005, at 0:33:34
In reply to Re: uh, why did you stop your meds??? » Deneb, posted by alexandra_k on October 8, 2005, at 17:22:22
> Has your mouth ever twitched before for any other reason?
I got twitching from Celexa and Zoloft. I don't recall twitching before the meds.
> Maybe it has but you didn't notice it...Perhaps...
It's kind of strange, but it seems like the more I think about the twitching, the more I twitch.
> But sounds to me like he is trying to help you as best he can...I don't think he really knows how to deal with me. He didn't give me any advice on continuing or stopping Risperdal. He basically told me that it is up to me...that I should stop if it doesn't help. I don't know if it helps or not. He said I should be able to tell by now because 2 weeks is more than enough time for a trial. I think it decreased anxiety in certain situations. I'm just really bad at realizing the effects of drugs. Maybe I don't know how to pay attention to myself and the way I feel.
> >I don't think he can tell the difference between crazy thoughts and a crazy imagination.
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> Can you tell the difference?
> I'm not sure that I can...Me neither. It's just all really confusing. I really don't know what is up with me. I basically told my p-doc the same thing...I don't know what is wrong...you figure it out, 'cause I can't. Sometimes I feel like I'm faking things or something, but then why would I fake things when I'm by myself? Why would I not be able to control my thoughts? Why would I get so very upset? My suffering is real, for whatever reason, I don't know...
> I didn't think the meds were about 'crazy' thoughts / imaginings so much as your intense distress and the paranoid ideation that tends to accompany that.
My p-doc said they were for my "crazy thoughts." (my phrase, not his). He told me to exercise when distressed.
> But the only way to tell is to keep taking them and see whether there is a general improvement.I really really hope it can prevent stuff like that from happening (the distress, the SI and weird horrible feelings). If I knew it would prevent them, I would take it.
Thanks Alexandra, for reminding me why I decided to take it in the first place.
I'm going to have another go at it. I really don't want to have another rope episode again because of a false belief.
Deneb
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