Posted by sleepygirl on June 4, 2005, at 17:05:40
In reply to Hey, sleepygirl, how did the first day go? (nm) » TamaraJ, posted by TamaraJ on June 3, 2005, at 15:30:11
The first day went very well. The second day sucked big time. I think I am a tremendous loser. I woke up in horror 15 minutes before I had to be there, so I was 15 minutes late on MY SECOND DAY!! I just wanted to die. My fiance had to be to work at 8, and me at 9. He woke me before he left, and I remember it vaguely, but I guess I'm such a STUPID *SS that I fell asleep again.
I am really hating myself right now, and I'm thinking about how much I wanted this job and how much I still want it, and how lucky I was to get it, and how can I be such a loser, and that I'd like to add another medication to help with my anxiety, but if I get any more sedated then I'll really be late, and be a HUGE loser, get fired, and then I will be massively SCREWED, and it will be no one's fault, but my own. I am a pathetic, wretched waste of life. Sorry to post such negativity, but it's all I got right now. Thank you for asking though.
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