Posted by corafree on February 14, 2005, at 10:24:59
In reply to Re: Tip for Candle Lovers, posted by trucker on February 13, 2005, at 19:05:22
My original post belonged in social.
I use candles to help w/ anxiety, the flickering flame, warmth, and scent, to calm or center myself.
Currently in therapy because in past I put myself in position to allow men to hurt me very badly; like an addict, took it until I could no longer bare it. Wasted years, not sure; certainly know what I don't want in life.
Anyway, for me, looks cannot now be as important as what's in my heart, my soul, my best.
I admit being preoccupied w/ my looks as long as can remember. I am not saying that is what you do.
I just want to give less of what's on my surface; it's exhausting. We've got cosmetic perfection on TV and around every corner.
Somewhere beneath my looks, there is much, much more goodness and an ability to really 'be' more there for myself and those I meet. I want to quit depending on my looks to get what I want.
Again, I'm not saying you're like me, but your post made me think of this issue of mine, and thanks for bringing it back to my attention.
I am always a bit scared to trust now; myself and others.
I would never harm a person physically. I would never invade another person's mind or belongings w/ the awful sneaky intentions I've learned are out there.
I am tho', now, guilty of hurting people w/ my words, thinking honesty is the best policy; but taking too far it is brutal. Think began this behavior after I'd met w/ 'bad' characteristics above.
Now, I have to learn to be 'me'; hmmm ... maybe first time really.
I'm working on relationships in therapy and it's a u-no-what! cf
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