Posted by bookgurl99 on June 15, 2003, at 0:29:02
Every since stopping antidepressants, I've been feeling a lot more anger along with my usual anxiety.
I have a vague memory that when I was in college 5 years ago, I told a professor that I swam an hour a day "because otherwise I would have to hurt someone." So I know that stress and anger seem to have been linked for me for a long time.
I feel really upset, as I want to control my reactions and not hurt others. I'm afraid I did so this week. At work, a clerical error was made in which I was made to appear to have missed much more work than I had. I was within an inch of being fired.
I asked my supervisor to look into this, telling her that I was sure it was a mistake. She didn't completely believe me (we don't work at the same time, so she could not have personally corroborated me). However, I really need my job, and pushed.
I tried to stay calm, but I talked in a very LOUD voice repeating that I was _sure_ this was a mistake and that I really value my job. She said she would look into it, but later that day I saw her coming out of the Human Resources with eyes that looked red from crying.
I'm sure it wasn't just me, but I think my LOUD FORCEFUL statements contributed to her stress level. I don't want to make anyone feel uncomfortable, and I have a feeling that this particular supervisor has experienced abuse in the past. I wish that I could have gotten my point across in a way that would not have triggered uncomfortable memories or feelings for her.
In the end, a highly paid person in Human Resources had to wade through small columns of numbers -- printed information that shows when employees last entered the building based on our electronic badge -- to find out when I left. They discovered a computer glitch, and I was proven correct.
But despite the effectiveness of my complaint, I would really like to handle it differently in the future.
Any suggestions on handling anxiety/anger/ work situations?
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