Posted by Dinah on June 14, 2003, at 2:52:42
In reply to Re: Slipping and sliding » Dinah, posted by fallsfall on June 13, 2003, at 23:51:33
He didn't have advice exactly. I had just very gently blessed him out for handing me too much advice the week before, when what I really needed was to be heard. But he listened and asked how he could best be of help. He agreed that it was best that he know so he could help me monitor how I'm doing and wants me to keep him informed. He covered his rear by asking about intent. :) We talked about the stressors in my life that might have brought it on. And I told him that I was hoping that it would pass, like so many of my moods do. As I said, he took it calmly and didn't overreact. Which was what I needed.
We spent more time talking about adjusting to the losses. And about how the anger at those losses might be the trigger I thought I was missing for the SI urges.
My next pdoc appointment is in mid-July. By that time I should have a better idea about whether this is just another of my moods, or a genuine slide into one of my infrequent bouts of depression. My therapist understands just how much I lose with SSRI's and why I am reluctant to go back on them. (Four years without orgasms alone is enough to make me want to wait out the depression without meds if possible.)
I guess he helped me find a bit of that control rather than watching helplessly as it happened.
But I do wish the world would slow down a bit. Work keeps piling up even though I find it hard to stay awake more than a few hours at a time.
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