Posted by Phil on April 11, 2002, at 18:27:30
In reply to Re: Suicide and support, posted by Fi on April 11, 2002, at 16:37:53
This was me thinking out loud too early this morning. We would have to find a way to make it work, as best we could. I know suicide is very often impulsive but it's not like it hasn't been rolling around in your head for weeks or months. It's not like you aren't sending signals if one is listening. That's the time to start a dialogue.
I've committed myself to not go the suicide route.
It only hurts you briefly, maybe, but it devastates people who love you. I believe it even hurts some 'enemies'.
I've heard that in hospitals, the dead are treated with reverence(right word?)while suicides
are seen much differently. Neither here nor there, I guess.You know, here's the thing. I was probably more suicidal when I was younger. I think so many times if I would have killed myself at 28 after a painful breakup with my girlfriend or at 17 when I didn't 'fit in'. I would have missed so much and a lot of it was good. I've seen several people on TV over the years that were saved just before they were gone. One guy, around 55, took a lot of pills with whiskey and had a hose from his exhaust into his car. I don't recall how he was saved but I'll never forget his tears of happiness that he was alive.
Nobody really wants to die; they want the pain to stop. Sometimes it doesn't. Are you gonna go to ANY lengths to live or will you kill yourself? I know sar would have had many happy days ahead if she could have stuck it out. That breaks my heart.
Sometimes we have to break life down. What small thing can I do today that I couldn't yesterday. Say hi to your asshole neighbor. Walk 50 yards.
Piss somebody off, whatever.Every one has the right to take their life and I have been on the edge too. Just remember next time you want to die, you will kill off a piece of your friends and family.
We get one go-round on earth and God knows it's gone so fast anyway. Why not stay around and just do the best you can.
If we could somehow stop 1(one)suicide and that person stumbled on the answer they needed to get well, would that be cool or what?
I will be 49 in July. I look around and I barely get by, depression has taken it's toll for sure. I don't see a happy future but I know I can glean some happiness out of it all. Who knows the future?
With my luck, I'd kill myself and the absolute cure would be in the headlines tomorrow.
I'm sorry, what was this thread about?
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