Posted by Lini on February 27, 2002, at 13:04:48
In reply to Next stop: Easy Street, posted by trouble on February 27, 2002, at 1:06:51
I have gone through something similar. I had a day where I was able to make myself happy. As in, I felt like shit, and I could do *something* that made me feel better. It was lighting a candle. Small, but it was a gift for me, from me, all the same. And I thought about - what if no one comes through for me, do I have enough inside myself to move forward? I thought maybe I had enough. Enough for awhile anyway. Thus began my re-acquaintance with life, and eventually with some degree of responsibility or control. I go too far sometimes in either direction - obsessive compulsive housekeeping pill popper to flower child drunk party girl, but the cliches always catch up with me. As I learn more of my own breadth and range, I get closer to becoming someone I could believe in.
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