Posted by Sigismund on July 25, 2009, at 1:01:53
In reply to Re: She says it's chemical, posted by Sigismund on July 23, 2009, at 3:51:22
You expressed some of my dilemmas lucidly.
>I'll never get the social life of my dreams, the job of my dreams, the love life of my dreams. I'll probably always struggle with the same issues I have now. I'll never be "fixed" once and for all. And so many things will inevitably get worse as I age, and my loved ones age & die.
Quite right. No argument. Not with me.
Although I might interrupt myself to say that it is only when I stop all that that I feel better. Tabitha, if I remember correctly you are around my age. You may remember your dreams from when you were 20, all the things you wanted. Back then it was the farm of the Jefferson Airplane sort, not a real farm where you had to work, but a fun farm with animals and a girl with flowing hair in a hippy dress, and you'd be popular and have all your friends round and be smoking dope and etc etc and like all dreams it has melted like frost in the sun.
>So in a way it feels I'm near to some hard-won truth. But this is how it usually is when I get sucked into negative thinking. There's a seductive phase where it seems like I'm seeing some new harsh truth, and I don't want to lose this. Because truth, even a harsh truth, does feel better than uncertainty, doesn't it
Now this is the interesting bit, (although I don't think that was a *particularly* harsh truth). I've never been impressed with this 'that is depression talking' thing, but I have experienced what it is like to talk to a few people who were chemically affected, as you put it, and not at all just with drugs.
It is just a very interesting subject. Glad you brought it up.
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