Posted by fleeting flutterby on July 10, 2009, at 18:33:30
In reply to What to do in August?, posted by Zana on July 4, 2009, at 18:18:51
> OK. Here's a stupid post. What are other people planning on doing during August when their therapist is away? Please don't say take walks!<<
The T. I see is gone now, she goes on vacation in July. I've never missed anyone, so it's not an issue for me.(been told I never developed "attachment" when an infant) I think the T. I see just did something that I didn't expect--- she gave me a type of gift the last session which was the day before she left on vacation. Now, I see that "gift" in my bedroom and..... I find myself thinking of her! Isn't that something! I have always had a kind of "out of sight, out of mind" way of being, also a numbing feeling. I don't miss someone and I don't anticipate the reunion..... just...feel nothing. but.... now.... something feels a little different.....
> I am scared to death of the emptiness since I go 5 days a week. (Massachusetts has a parity law requiring biologically based mental illnesses be covered just like physcial illnesses so there is no cap on the number of visits I get. That's the upside of having a major depressive disorder.)
> I feel like I am in a panic every hour I am in therapy, trying to get better faster so I can tolerate the separation. I don't think I can move that fast! What are other people planning to do to manage?
> I'm worried!
> Zana<<Maybe you can have something-- even temporary-- from your T.s office? that way you can feel a part of T. is still with you..... if your T. will agree to that.
I hope you can find some ways to cope and get through August OK.
best hopes to you,
flutterby-mandy
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